This is a letter I wrote to a friend on the hotel stationery while lying on the bathroom floor. I wrote this letter to cope with how I was feeling and to distract me from my urges. I was sobbing and exhausted when I wrote this, it was extremely cathartic […]
You may have heard that May is Mental Health Awareness Month, but did you know it’s also Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month? A few months ago I was sitting in my psychiatrist’s office and said something to the effect of “well they didn’t think I was good enough” there was […]
Well, I became one of those people who makes YouTube videos now I guess? I created 2 channels, the first one being “Dopamine Darling” which I plan to be more fun, lifestyle, fashion, skincare, and haul type videos while still touching lightly on mental health, addiction, and neurodivergence. The second […]
Now that I have at least a few dozen of you ready to jump down my throat and shove studies, statistics, and stories in my face let me explain what I mean. I hate what marijuana does to me and how young society views and pushes it. It’s no secret […]
Hello everyone, I know it’s been a long time since you’ve heard from me. I want to let you all know that I am ok; I just have had a lot of reasons that have been keeping me from writing or posting. Lately, I have been feeling a lot […]
Look at this picture, just a cute couple dancing, right? Do you like it? Based on this picture what do you think this moment was like? How do you think I’m feeling physically and emotionally here? How do you think my day had gone so far? Just build a […]
It has been such a long time that I felt like I could be creative, of course, I have to be creative for work, but I haven’t felt any spark to do something for myself in a long time. Using drugs for so many years I was so dulled down […]
I may be going back into treatment, well, what I should say is I’m signed up to go into treatment, but I’m not really sure I want to go. Yesterday I had an appointment with my therapist and she updated me with what the programs she reached out to said. […]
I Also Have Really Terrible Social Skills! I hate going to see doctors, as you would expect of a mentally ill drug addict with chronic pain, stomach problems, and a history of an eating disorder. I’d say most people don’t like going to the doctor, but when you’re trying to […]
When most people think “self-care,” they usually think of those lists you see plastered all over Facebook and Pinterest; go to the coffee shop and write, take a bath, sit out in the sun, do an at-home facial, watch your favorite movie while eating candy; those sorts of things (note: […]