I’m lonely. Normally I don’t mind some alone time, I really like my space, but it’s been so long without any kind of consistent interaction that I’m really hurting. I was kicked out of my work friends group chat, the one that was my idea, yeah I got kicked […]
Monthly Archives: January 2019
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I’ve tried to write this post about 4 times over the past 5 hours, but I’m in such a dizzying panic all of my thoughts are disjointed, and I can’t express what I’m trying to say. I wanted to cancel my therapy appointment today because I have been extra sensitive […]
This is something I was talking about with my therapist at our last appointment; I have been having a major issue with motivation. I have surpassed the “just get off your ass, you lazy bum” kind of lack of motivation, I literally feel frozen, like I can’t move or function. […]
This is a worksheet I did early into being in rehab; I hadn’t really spent too much time on self-reflection or digging into my character defects. This was fresh, and even these little things were hard to admit to myself, but looking back they look like such small problems in […]
CW: I want everyone to be able to read this post, so I chopped the sensitive content and put it at the end so you can just avoid it. I mention exact numbers and share one of the most heartbreaking parts of this disease, it’s not necessarily triggering, but it […]
Yep, we’re going there. This post probably will make you uncomfortable, but since so few people want to talk about this, I’ll do it. Let’s get a few things out of the way before we start: Content Warning: There is a brief reference to sexual trauma/assault. Cringe Warning: I talk […]
Hello world, You can call me Darling, and as the post title suggests I turned my nervous breakdown into a website. Why on earth would I do something like that? Aren’t I supposed to hide the ugly side of myself and pretend that never happened? To be socially acceptable, yes, […]
I’ve made it 2 years without drinking! I think that deserves a trophy, even if it’s just an icon on Facebook (hmu if you wanna give me a real one.) Unfortunately, I’m only 4 months into full recovery, but that’s a lot, and 2 years without a drop of alcohol […]